Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Book Review Journal #2 - "At First Sight" - Nicholas Sparks

"At First Sight" - by Nicholas Sparks



This book is about a young couple, that meet up and fall in love in at first sight. They end up getting pregnant right out of the gate and Jeremy makes the decision to uproot himself from his successful New York career and move to Boone Creek, to follow Lexie, who thinks it's important for their child to be raised where she was raised. So rather quickly he packs up his New York apartment and moves down to Boone Creek, but by trade Jeremy is a writer. His writing mainly focuses on disproving frauds and hoaxes, the whole nature versus nurture, and comes from a scientific explanation for everything kind of stand point. However throughout the course of the book, Jeremy is faced with writers block, and he seems desperate to write a good article, all the while dealing with some tumultuous struggles between himself and Lexie. Jeremy seems to be going to desperate measures to come up with a good story, and finds himself turning to Doris (Lexi's grandmother) for inspirations. He is forced to make a decision that will change the course of his career. He's faced with deciding what is worth more to him, what he has believed to be true all these years, or what is true?

I can totally relate to Jeremy's position, as in my pre-injury career I was working in a line of work that I was VERY passionate about and believed that I was doing wonderful things for the people around me. Sure there were bumps along the road, but when aren't there? I really used those bumps as opportunities for growth, and didn't let them steal my passion or bog me down. Unfortunately, my career choice became my demise. I was assaulted by the very person I was soo passionate about supporting. I felt I had done him soo much good, and I was faced with soo many contradictions all at once. Nothing made sense anymore. How could this happen to me? I had done everything according to plans and they had literally blown up in my face and landed me in the hospital with a severe injury that would end my career. My passion, my life. All gone in a flash. It's a really hard feeling to relate to but it sure spoke to me in this novel.

You have to learn a new passion, and you look back at everything so differently. Suddenly those "bumps along the road" weren't learning opportunities, they were warnings to run as fast as you can. Signs of cracks in the foundation you were working so hard to build.

I would highly recommend this book for anyone who has seen how tragedy can transform who you are to who you will become, and how fresh perspective really does have a significant bearing on bringing things into clearer focus when they are becoming hazy.

One of the quotes that I loved from this book was:

"Though he sometimes reflected on the trials he and Lexie had gone through before marriage, he knew they had emerged from them stronger as a couple. When he looked at Lexie now, he knew he had never carried for anyone as deeply. What he didn't know, what he couldn't know, was the hardest days were yet to come." (pg. 120)

When I first read that quote, it made me think that parenthood was going to be a challenge for them, or that their baby was going to be born with problems due to the umbilical cord issues. I really didn't imagine that the book was going to end the way it did. In an effort not to spoil the ending for you I'm not going to say what happens, but to me, it certainly was true that you really never do know how things are going to turn out. You are going to be challenged in life in ways you never imagined possible. You will be faced with impossible decisions, and forced through tormenting emotions. Life is hard, but man it sure is amazing. The good thing about being through something horrible is it makes all the good things that much greater. It's a process to get yourself in that head-space where you can even see the good through the bad, but you really do emerge on the other side of tragedy for the better, and if you haven't gotten to the point where it seems better, keep working, digging your way through the trenches. BUT, don't ever stop being aware of the realities of those trenches, because just when you think you are through something else will be ready and waiting to claw you back down, you have to dust yourself off and carry on. Reminding yourself all the time of the amazing things surrounding you.

At the end of the book things came full circle for Jeremy, and ironically enough, his full circle left him in the same position I feel I am in today. So incredibly in love with life because of the people that are in it, and open to all possibilities, but painfully aware of the unfairness that has frayed the edges.

Amy

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Top Two Tuesday!! Top Two Songs On Your Ipod

So today was another crummy day around our household, after our crazy busy weekend, my hubby ended up in the hospital last night with kidney stones....poor guy... so sorry for the skimpy post today, but after I myself had a rather crappy day too, I'm going with a blog hop for Top Two Tuesdays, so head on over to The Undomestic Momma and play along
And the topic was the top 2 songs on your ipod!!

So my top two songs are:

  1. Pink - "Fuckin' Perfect" - I LOVE LOVE LOVE this song super loud!!



2. "How to Save A Life" - The Fray - after Grey's Anatomy reminded me how much I love this song, this makes my top two!!!


So, that is my top two tuesdays today!! Head on over to Undomestic Momma to join in the fun!! Hope you are all having a better day then me....


Amy

Monday, April 4, 2011

After Pics!! Great Room and Hallway!! Manic Monday!!

So, yet again, we pulled it off!! We refloored our entire main floor in just two short weekends!! And better yet I couldn't be happier with the results!! We started off the weekend by emptying the pantry and my (SUPER FRIGGEN HEAVY) china cabinet, relocating these items throughout the house (if you wanted pantry food you had to go to the office... good fun... lol....not so much... but hey like I said it looks amazing!!

Saturday morning Ash and Mike came over and helped take up the old laminate flooring (as they are going to reuse it in there master bedroom as its still in great shape (only three years old). Then Eric got cracking on the floor, starting around 3pm (by the time all the prep work was done), and floored straight through until 10pm, when we could finally start moving some furniture (namely said SUPER HEAVY china cabinet) back into the great room, so we could go to bed (as all the china was chillin on our bed).

Sunday morning we got up and Eric started putting down all the quarter round I tediously painted Saturday afternoon. Then he went to work on the shelving for our pantry. We used to just have two shelves sitting inside the closet that for some odd reason had a hanging bar (despite not being close to the front door), which was a huge pain in the butt, as stuff always fell behind the shelves and was never seen again (until Friday night ...). We made the discovery I had purchased the wrong kind of track(with the guidance of a Home Depot associate), so we had to head back to the store to buy the right one (with only an hour to spare before the store closed). This is the point in the story to note that it was 8 degrees celcius out all weekend (quite nice), so we literally grabbed Hannah and the track and ran out the door. We got about 15 minutes from home and noticed it the sky looked dark behind us, and Eric commented that he hoped it didn't rain as the saw we had been using to cut all the flooring was still outside on the deck (waiting to be used to cut the pantry shelves...). Que the rain, not even a minute later rain drops splashed on our windshield. We decided it was going to be a super quick trip into Home Depot, so we went in got the right stuff (all of which took maybe 15 minutes), walked out of Home Depot and we are in a freaking blizzard. It was now snowing hard. GREAT!! We drove home as quickly as the weather would allow, and rescued our soaking wet saw, and we wondered if it was going to work, as it was clearly wet. So Eric blew it out with his air compressor, and fired it up. AND IT WORKED!!! YAY!! Thank goodness. So he finished up the pantry, we moved the rest of the furniture back in and Eric was supposed to relax as I reorganized the pantry. But someone had other plans for him, he'd just sat down on the couch and put his feet up, and BEEP!!BEEP!!!BEEP!!, his fire pager went off, car crash on the 401, out he goes, is gone about an hour comes home, says he's going to take a shower, is in the bedroom getting his stuff ready and BEEP!!!!BEEP!!!BEEP!!! (again...ugh), another car accident. Off he goes, out for another hour, finally home and really hoping for a good nights rest. Lucklily, no more calls for the night, we had a hydro outage, due a to a freak thunderstorm?? (sun, rain, snow and thunder all in one day WHAT?!!). But here are my beautiful floors!! I love them.... although Hannah has wiped out on them a few times this morning....
Looking down the hall... probably my favorite view....


dining area









can't wait to see these cabinets expresso next weekend....

New shelves in the pantry


now filled up


much better!!!


So, that's my reno weekend, so thrilled that it is done, only one more reno to go, we saved the best for last!! Stay tuned later this week for the before pics of the kitchen!! I'm linking up with Ashley at Life As I Know It for her Manic Mondays, so head on over here and link up and tell her what you did this weekend!!

Amy

Friday, April 1, 2011

Five Question Fridays!!

This week I decided to link up with Five Crooked Halos and her Five Question Fridays


1. Have you ever had surgery?
2. Ever ride in an ambulance?
3. How are you in a medical emergency? Panicked? Calm?
4. Do you have a garden? Flowers or veggies?
5. When did you move out of your parents house?
And the answers are :

1. Have you ever had surgery?
  • yep, several times, about once every two years (until I was 14) when I was a little girl (starting when I was two) because when I was born the Dr put the I.V in my left hand and severed the tendon, so I have limited use of my left hand, as the attempted to do several surgeries to correct it, but I developed a connective tissue disorder (I proliferate scar tissue), so they would do surgery just to try and remove the excess scar tissue and free up the tendons (unsuccessfully).
  • I also had to have a c-section when Hannah was born, we are just waiting to see how that has affected my future fertility potential (as we know I have a problem with scar tissue) 
2. Ever ride in an ambulance?
  • yep quite a few times, I had my first ambulance ride from one hospital to another on the night that I was injured at work, the required me to be seen by more specialized neurosurgeons so they had to transfer me to a hospital in a bigger city
  • since my injury I have rode in the ambulance three different times after passing out at various inconvenient locations, the good part is that I am usually unconscious so I don't remember much of the ride
3. How are you in a medical emergency? Panicked? Calm?
  • that depends, is the emergency happening to me? if it is then I am calm as long as I am unconscious, but if I am conscious and you are trying to give me a needle it ain't pretty
  • if the medical emergency is happening to someone else, especially someone I love I am very anxious, I just want the person to be ok, with my hubby being on the fire department a lot of the time he is responding to a call I am in the car with him (as we would be out and about doing errands) and he can get called at any moment, and I am always thinking of the people's families, and how upsetting of a day this is going to be for them, as most of the time, they aren't even yet aware of the accident

4. Do you have a garden? Flowers or veggies?
  • my house came landscaped, that said, it needed some work, so this past summer we put in a nice brick retaining wall in the front garden and a gorgeous weeping cherry tree, and this year I have bought some peonies(my grandma's favorite flower - and I love them soo much they remind me of her) to plant out front, and we are going to put in some dark mulch as opposed to the red mulch we already have (again came with the house)
  • I also plan on planting a small veggie garden in my backyard this year, it's already set up for it, I just need to get some good topsoil to top it up, I plan to plant cherry tomatoes and strawberries (Hannah's favorite's)

5. When did you move out of your parents house?
  • I moved out when I was 19 my first year of university
So head on over to Five Crooked Halo's and play along!! Have a great weekend!!!

Amy

Before Pics - Great Room

So we are gearing up for our flooring installation this weekend throughout the hallway and the great room (which encompasses the family room and dining room). Right now we have a combination of carpet and laminate flooring, and I can't wait to have it all match our recently redone master bedroom and Hannah's room (which you can read about here). So here are the before shots:

This is shot standing in the kitchen looking into the great room....

Again standing in the kitchen looking at the pantry door and down the hallway to the bedrooms



Our fireplace (and Hannah's toy bin....)

The china cabinet I am not looking forward to emptying

The hallway leading to the bedrooms, why they carpeted it I'll never know, as the first door on the left hand side in the main floor bathroom.... then the linen closet....

BYE BYE CARPET.....

Standing at the window looking at the front door....

Standing at the fireplace looking at the dining area....

Dining area again...

Dining area again leading out to our deck and patio (Lucky suntanning)


Standing at the fireplace looking towards the kitchen (can't wait to Rustoleum those cabinets next weekend)



So, those are my before pics, check back Monday for the afters, I am soo thrilled for this renovation. It's going to look amazing.

So our plans for this weekend are as following:
  • Tonight my mom is coming to watch Hannah (and Eric is working afternoons) so I will be painting all the quarter round in the garage
  • Tonight I will also be emptying the china cabinet
  • Tonight I will also be emptying the pantry, which the before pic is super-scary and I'm not sure I'm ready to share it... you saw my other closets.... but on the upside, we are looking into getting a better organized system for in there as well (to be installed hopefully Sunday)
  • Saturday morning, Mike and Ash are coming over to help remove the flooring and the furniture
  • Eric starts the flooring and hopefully completes it all on Saturday
  • Sunday install quarter round and go to Home Depot to get shelving for the pantry
So that's my weekend in a nutshell, it's going to look a lot like last weekend in here, disastrous, but it is soo worth it!! Hope everyone has a great weekend and check back Monday for the After pics!!

Amy

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